Hey I'm back. Did you notice that I was gone?

Two weeks. Wow.

Two weeks and my family actually survived. We all deserve a slow clap for this feat. 

I'm still in a state of shock. We have internet connection. After two weeks of being dead to the "world"? Yeah, it's like walking after your leg feels like it just died from sitting for so long. It's hard to get on your feet and when you start to walk, you go all wobbly and for a second there think you might just fall on your face.

 Life is just so complicated now, everything's done online now. And two weeks without being online and connected via social networking is like being dead for almost three months. Or more. I'll think of the past weeks as a detox diet. I'll live.

I haven't updated in quite a while, and I see a growing pile of folders filled with pictures just waiting to be uploaded. Must fix my school shizz first and deal with my own personal pity party after. 

Gosh, haven't touched Yo Zappity as well. Oh Gerard. I need to update my baby project. 

Must get serious, oh so very serious. We'll make Joker so mad, baby.

My fingers are so funky, but it needs to learn how to strum. I want to play with my new baby. I named her Marcy. I've baptized her the same way I did her older brother St. Jimmy. Licking your guitar's neck is a baptismal rite. It's like stepping on your new shoes or whatever.

I need more time to spend with a best friend. I love her so much I'd stop my being straight edge. Pineapple + vodka + wasabi = amazeballs. Seriously. I'd do celebratory drinks only only for my best grrrls. And special occasions. But mostly them.

More music, please? Music for the sick-ish?

- >:)

I care a whole lot so I decided to write a song just so you know how much I heart you

So I wrote a song. 

It was originally for one of my closest friends, 'cause lately she's been feeling really down and as her lifeline and a really good friend it is my sole duty to make her happy. But after awhile I just kept putting in random words that rhymed, making it sound cool enough if you add music to it and suddenly all my feels from being totally in like with someone who's really oblivious to my like like and can't seem to take me seriously has gone into the song as well. So yeah.

It's barely a song actually, it's short and looks like you just have to keep singing it at one point. Aaaaand it's all mushy and baby-ish 'cause I'm inspired by Kimya Dawson's work. It's not one of my best songs that I've "written" or tried to write, with try being the operative verb. But this is just a little something for people who feel sad, who feels like they're all alone in this miserable planet, or if you just feel ugly and stupid and the person you like doesn't give a damn? Just know that someone out there hearts you so much and that person is me. Yes.

This song is for you.

~

Heeeeey >:) by a ninja carrot mermaid


Hey, hey remember me/close your eyes and count to three/
Everything's gonna be okay/you know I'm here to stay/
I've been waiting for you to notice/I've been waiting for you to say just how much you missed me/and my bombastic personality/

So don't you cry/this isn't goodbye/you know where to find meeeee/

Imma Imma hug you/Imma Imma sing for you/Imma Imma will tell you words you want to hear/
Imma Imma try to make you smile/Imma Imma make it all worthwhile/
I just want to make you happy/I just want to keep you safe/I want you to forget your worries/
So heeeeey


*Extra whatevs talking part:
(So yeah. I know it sounds cheesy and I know the rhymes sound wrong. I'll repeat my song until you get sick and tired of hearing it. But I'll still sing it even when you kick me)

Heeeeeyyyyy!

- >:)

Hello you

I can't believe it's only been 25 days since my birthday and I've been through a lot already. I know I'm not always posting, and saying how busy I am with school or with my extra-curricular activities as a reason not to make time for ranting on the internet. What the hey, shizz happens. All in all it's just me going through the day where half the time I'm just really lazy, and the other half I'm all out cramming. And the other half? I'm just doing whatever makes me happy.

Yeah, never been that good at math either.

And yes, I've been super busy, super lazy and super crazy these past few weeks. I can barely get to write and draw on my DIY planner to just leave this memory of what I did that day. It makes me sad when I see a blank page and think, What crazy shizz have I done today? I better not been spreading the emo and weird around. What's wrong with youuuuuuu.Why this page boring foo? Imma mess you up!

Been trying to make myself less uncool than I already am, been trying to "study", been trying to make it to class on time (lol, keep trying bro), been trying to get over my awkward habit of being all shy around cooler more fun people, been trying to make baking orders, been trying to be a better person. There's a lot of trying and failing involved, but you know how "two out of three ain't bad"? Well, I think I'll live through this.

I'm just really overwhelmed about everything that's happened to me, good or bad. The good stuff just makes me go, Nah I can handle this. While the bad? I can go from, That's nothing, to, What the hey hey, and then, I hate youuuuuu, why are you messing up with my mojo you sick bizz.

So here's to a post to end my favorite month of the year. With pictures! >:)

My birthday project! Been working on these since January. Love love everyone who took the time and effort to write- even if it was forced, and to those who went to the extra mile to get people to write. You know who y'all are ♥

Birthday girl

Van Gogh Is Bipolar ♥ Where I celebrated my coming of age! I heart this place, it's so fantastic

Choose your teapot

Dessert shots/brownies. Yes, we drank a mix of absinthe off test tubes

The best thing in the world!

Seriously, this dinner course made me extremely happy. It's the cabbage bro

Because everyone had to wear silly hats and look awesome, just look at my lolo and lola- so fabulous;)

It's so hard to get a decent picture of the five of us nowadays, took forever just to get this shot. Heart it:)

Dinner at Van Gogh's wouldn't have been possible without my dad using his awesome charismatic powers, don't know how he did it! It was Jetro who texted me :>

Also check out thy birthday cake!

Birthday cake in the making

I was so in love with the Nazi hat, but I changed to wearing a tiara 'cause I'm still a girl

My gorgeous best friend! We're practically sisters already. Here's to extended family members

Boom!

Tophat ♥

This place was so cool, even the bathroom was flipping artsy

My kind of bathroom, a place where you can write your darkest secret...

Went crazy with the highlighter pens, lol

Me and Jetro ♥ So so happy I turned eighteen

Vain, vaaaaain :)) Me going to Isabel's debut

Eppyuu bra strap, y u not cooperate with meeeee?

Did I say debut? I meant wedding >:) Lol, I kid. Doesn't the debutante look lovely? :)

Boom! Got a picture with my beffie ♥

What I wake up to each morning, last thing I see before I go to sleep 

Two college-changing choices I made this year. Had to back out of being an AdCreate neo, but still heart the id. Even if I do look ridiculous:))

Also auditioning for GGFM = best decision I made. Ever

Books I've read, and books I'm still trying to finish

Been so into nail polish the past few weeks. And yes, that is a picture of me. With a 'stache. Yeeeaahh

Watched the coolest movie, been waiting for this too! Been a fan since 2005. ALSO someone just chucked this sticker on my desk, lol don't know who it's from actually

Favorite footwear since July 6, heart my kicks ♥

Why I'm feelingsmithy. Found my bracelet from high school :>

A poster I got from Comic Con! My tita got to go, and they were just giving away random things for free! This has like the essence of RDJ and Joseph Gordon-Levitt, same airspace

My fave bag ever! People keep approaching me, asking me where I got my Jake bag. Just imagine if they knew it's a Finn bag too >:)

Reunions ♥

I want this in my room 

My bb bros

Welcome to Eat Me. We are now open for business ;)

LSP cupcakes ♥ 

Goodbye July. Hello August!


- >:)